Becoming

There was once a very small girl. She was so very small that at times she just knew she was invisible. The rest of the time she desperately wished she was unseen. But this story is about becoming; becoming alive, becoming visible, becoming real, becoming genuine; about becoming who she was meant to be all along. It's a love story, for only love is real.

It all began one day when she was watching a mother interact with her child. There was so much love between the two of them that the hole inside the small girl grew bigger with longing. Her great need desperately ached to be expressed but she realized her words were frozen inside of her. She couldn't get them out. In any case, the thawing had begun. It was to be a slow process that would take years to complete - quite possibly the rest of her life. You see, she thought the love only lived in this one very lucky little boy's house. She had no idea it dwells among all of us just waiting to be released - called upon - set free.

All her life the girl went to church with her family. But the churches they attended din't speak of love - only death and darkness and punishment. God seemed really big, really scary and not very understanding. Punishment seemed to be the way he kept you in check, the way he communicated. It was not good and by the time the girl realized this she had glimpsed real love away from this place. She decided to turn to the world to look for more evidence of love's existence and in doing so she turned her back on her parents and her parent's God.

It was at that moment that darkness overcame her. She began to make some very bad choices. She found that what looked like love oftentimes was a lie and it lurked around every corner. The girl became desperate and afraid which only made her search harder. But she was searching in all the wrong places and she seemed so alone.

Then one night a new boy danced into her life. This boy was very different from all the others. At first she coudn't even look at him. He seemed so bright. After a period of time her eyes became adjusted to his light and she began to hear and comprehend his words. They were kind. He was kind. This was different. The boy didn't just accept her in this place and take advantage of her great need. This boy saw more. He saw down into her soul. He could see who she really truly was. He knew her long before she knew herself. He offered her his hand once more time and she reluctantly took it. She has been hanging on ever since.

Through all this time when the girl thought she was so alone there was another presence there with her. She sees it clearly now - years later. All the times when horrible things could have happened to her, she was protected. She had been pursued by Love. After many years of running she was captured by the Lover of her Soul, the very One she had turned her back on years ago. But now He had redefined Himself to her. Now He portrayed Love, not condemnation. At first it was unbelievable and the girl had a hard time accepting Him and His truth, but He continued to woo her to Him, just as the boy had done. He saw what the boy had seen in her. In fact, they know now He had given the boy His vision.

Now they had to get the girl to see what they saw. This took persistence but they never gave up on her. There are still times when she can find herself in the haze of lies but the clarity of truth quickly illuminates the darkness. And today she is being used to woo others to Him that are unseen - other invisible children. Her words are thawing and beginning to flow. She has very visibile times when she feels alive and full. And the miracle of love is growing. The boy and the girl now have a child who is their own very lucky little boy. She is exceedingly blessed and extremely grateful. Thank you, Boy. Thank you, God - for believing in her when she could not believe in herself.