Hello There

So, it's been awhile since I last posted. I'm not sure how many of you still read this thing but I know one who does, so here I am. Hi Jack! Thanks for the kick in the butt!

Things are not all hunky dory in Candyland. (Hunky dory - my mom used to say that.) My mom died. I knew she would. When I saw her in June I knew she couldn't go on living like that for long. She was so frail. But she was very much alive. She was very much alive on Monday, October 6 when I last spoke to her. She was wondering why she was still here. She told me for the umpteenth jillion time that when she was 19 she was told she wouldn't live to be 20. She was living for a year in a sanitorium for TB. I told her I was on my way to a prayer group and she asked me to have them pray for her. I said I sure would. When I got there I told them what she had said and they asked how they should pray. I asked them to pray that God would bring her home. That's what we did. And that's what He did the following Saturday - October 11. I always knew I'd get a phone call late in the night. I did. I was still up. Geoff answered the phone. I knew. It was that simple.

My mom was dealt a pretty lousy hand in this game of life. Nevertheless she lived it with as much grace as she could muster. Sometimes it didn't seem like enough grace to those of us around her but I see now in hindsight that it was abundant grace and she was abundantly graceful. I would not have wanted to live the life she was dealt. Yet I did live mine beside hers for 18 years. Then my grace ran out and I made the choice to leave. It was high time(as my mother would say). She never understood my leaving. It wasn't in her nature to leave. I don't think she knew she could. That's why God gave her the strength to stay I guess. And in her staying, now that she is gone, I am learning so much. I'm still processing the life and death of my mother. I probably will for as long as I live. Because it's true what they say about how the dead live on in those of us left living. It is so true. I still feel her here inside me. I think that's all for now. Thanks for caring. Oh and one more thing. God is good. Never ever forget that. And you are loved - perfectly.