Confessions of a Procrastinator

I confess. My last post was on September 9 in which I talked about being excited about a new book I received. I was anxious to sit down and start it. I'm still anxious. But I guess I'm more anxious about finishing the other book I had already started, The Ragamuffin Gospel. I used to be a prolific reader. I read every chance I got, anything I could get my hands on. And I read them right through to the end. These days I find myself distracted. In fact, I just started a new Bible study called Born for Redemption - Overcoming Self-Condemnation by Discovering Your God-Given Identity and today the question was to ask the Holy Spirit to reveal to you a lie satan has told you recently. I sat quietly and asked God to reveal the latest lie to me. (I've heard plenty of them through the course of my life and have battled them in His strength for the last four years to regain some of the ground satan has stolen from me.) You see, I believe God speaks to us. I believe I can hear His voice. And what I heard was this. "satan has told you that you are useless. You are easily distracted. You will never accomplish anything." Wow. I know this to be truth. I didn't realize it was one of satan's lies. The power I feel in knowing "who told me this" is incredible. Now I know what to do with it. I repent of it. I speak it out as a lie. I embrace God's truth that in Him I am worthy and useful and He can help me focus and accomplish anything He wills me to accomplish. I know this is the truth. I know in God's eyes I am like Him - created in His image - and God is anything but useless and distracted. So, today I look forward to speaking the truth and seeing what God will do with it. Four years ago I didn't have a voice with which to speak either the lies or the truth. I was invisible and I liked it that way. Today I am not invisible. I am a living, breathing work of God, transformed into His likeness. And I want to share this truth with the ladies on the retreat this weekend, the 6th grade girls this Wednesday and with my family and friends. Father, thank You for bringing this lie into the Light of your Truth. Thank you for seeing me as I really am and showing me myself in Your mirror. Let me have eyes to see who needs Your Truth in their lives today and let me have your words of encouragement for them. Give me Your boldness and the courage to do Your Will. Jesus - Amen...